Monday, May 7, 2012

rusty




I keep trying to scratch off the rust--- doing my best to return to normalcy and documenting life here at The Creamery.  But the days have been so far from anything normal.  I'm on a different planet.  The topography, the geography, the astronomy--- all foreign.

I face the task of learning the map of this new place, and my location in it.

But for now I do my best to focus my eyes on the small square of earth beneath these feet.  I tell myself I know that there is grass here.  It is verdant green and rich with life.  There are birds singing somewhere in the distance.  And the children - the plural nature of these beings that inhabit this space with me, they are here and present.  Their needs and wants have been the pulse of my existence for the past eight weeks and now I must adjust my sight, try to unburden myself from the darkness and know that yes, I am standing here in this place.  And it's going to feel like home one day soon.




(tomorrow I will tell you why Max was dressed up in his finest; and yes that is a tiny baby bow tie)

2 comments:

Mrs. Irritation said...

Max is so adorable!

It's nice to see you again. I can't wait to hear how you all are doing, what Alice thinks about having a baby brother, hear how you are feeling - all that stuff. But, I also get it. Life is a bit demanding, so cut yourself some slack and get to the blog when you get to it. We miss you but we'll be here when you get back.

xoxo

Amy said...

Happy to hear from you. I know what you mean...I haven't posted much (at all) since Claire arrived almost 10 months ago.