Friday, September 2, 2011

what if





What if it turns out to be the most expensive thing we have ever done?

What if we don't have enough money?

What if we are unprepared?

What if I get really sick?

What if Chip gets really sick?

What if I can't do it?

What if everything that's happened, up to this point, is a fluke?

What if it just breaks Alice, like right in half?

What if we fight all the time?

What if there is heart trouble or brain trouble or some kind of physical cataclysm?

What if there is mental trouble or pharmaceuticals or constant doctor's visits?

What if there is heartbreak and sadness, loss and grief of a kind that weights us down until we can't breathe?

What if we unbalance the scales?

What if we break the surface of this beautiful life we've built and it's terrible--- just terrible?

What if we are absolutely miserable?



And what if it works? What if it's a bliss that can't come in any other way than through the tempering strength of pain? What if everything else is true: the misery and worry and heartbreak and destruction--- and what if there, under the surface of all that darkness lies the gift of the life we are meant to have; that in the crucible of this experience, we find something we didn't know we were ever missing?














Are you ready for this ride?


17 comments:

Sibley Saga .... said...

WOOO HOOO! Like I told my husband, getting pregnant is a GOOD 'oh crap'!


Happy happy happy for you!

clueless but hopeful mama said...

Oh Whimsy! HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY for you! It is a crazy, unpredictable ride but so wonderful too.

I was reading along like "wha wha wha??????....... YAYAYAYAYAYAYAY!!!"

oxoxo

Alicia said...

Yaaay! WOOHOO!

Alicia said...
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Alicia said...

Ugh. My comment posted twice. And then I deleted the second one. And now I look like a weird comment deleter.

Yaaay! WOOHOO!

Elizabeth said...

Oh, yeah! So exciting! Congratulations. I have had all those "What if's" and to be honest with you having the second one was one of the best things I've ever done.

Rose said...

Congratulations! :D When are you due?

m said...

CONGRATS! What a lucky kid! You guys will do fantastic and love it!!

stacie d said...

OH MY GOSH!!!!!! I JUST GOT CHILLS AND TEARS!!! CONGRATS!! I LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

~Aimee~ said...

::BIG GIANT SQUEEZE THE STUFFINGS OUT OF YOU HUGS:: Yippee!!! So happy for you all. :-D

Amy said...

I'm crying from excitement for you! Congratulations! xoxo

Chelle said...

What if... you are the most amazing parents in the world and deserve the wildest joy and miraculous experience of having another sweet child? Whimsy, this quote is all for you: "You have to risk going too far to discover just how far you can really go.” ~T.S. Eliot Words cannot describe how absolutely thrilled I am for you.

Rainyday said...

Congrats!!! Awesome news - it's a wild ride indeed. And you'll ride it like a pro.

Mrs. Irritation said...

What if it's just so freaking awesome you won't remember how you managed life without Bean#2? Congratulations to all three of you. This is going to be a wild ride!!!

Sara Hammond said...

I don't even know what to say! So glad you shared with us. It will be a grand adventure!

Jayme said...

Yay Whimsy!

tearese said...

I am so happy for you! And we can't afford our littlest guy either, but we're so happy he's here anyway. Congratulations!